Four years ago today I wrote my 6th blog post. Back then I had no idea where I even wanted to go with the blog. A month before that post I didn’t even know what blogging was (or ever used Twitter!) and just saw it as a way to get back to writing. I hadn’t done in so long and needed an outlet. My real life seemed to be falling apart. I had no direction and no kind of motivation. Once I discovered the world of blogging I was excited, happy to be doing something fun and exciting for a change. As time wore on, I was motivated to be a top blogger, the ones I saw getting the major brand partnership and traffic numbers in the millions. I soon realized that blogging success was a marathon and not a sprint so I slowed down. I took the time to get better, try new things, and work on standing out from the now thousands of style blogs out there. Up until I found out I was pregnant I was motivated take Fierce a step higher than what it already was.
Fast forward to today and my motives are drastically different. Instead of blogging on the side as I’ve done for years, it’s now a major part of my new found freelance career. My blog was now the place where potential clients could see what I’m made of. Talk about pressure! I started doing some of my content not because I wanted to but because I felt like I had to. If I didn’t post on a day I was scheduled to, I suffered from major blogger’s guilt. If my traffic numbers didn’t look good on a particular day (okay I’ll be real here, it’s been stagnate for quite some time now!) I would rattle my brain at night trying to figure out what I could do to get more views. Suddenly this blogging thing wasn’t much fun anymore. It was on that slope to becoming a source of stress. And ya’ll, I can’t afford to be stressed!
When you have a little person who looks to you for everything, you gotta be sunshine and rainbows most of the time. When I’m in a bad mood, she knows it and it directly impacts her. That’s not fair to her. She’s a big reason why I decided leave my day job in the first place. Working from home isn’t easy and knowing where your next client is going to come from is stressful enough! My blog needs to be the place where I can continue to grow and have fun.
I realized it’s time to go back to square one- my love of writing. This blog started as a place where I can go, write, and be me – good, bad, or indifferent. That has to be my primary motivation. I have to remember that the next time I start freaking out about a blog post.
Tell me, what motivates you to blog? Have you ever fallen off track?